Somedays







Somedays

Somedays I just want to hang up my stethoscope and just be a wife and mother. Somedays I do not want to be a caregiver. Somedays I don’t even want to smile. Somedays I walk into a patients room and I want to turn around and run out, not just out of the room but out of the ER out of the hospital. Somedays I want to scream. Somedays I want to cry. Somedays I do scream. Somedays I do cry. 
But everyday I see you. I see your pain. I see your fear. I see your desire to be loved. I see your excitement. I see your anger. I see your joy. Somedays God sends me reminders that I am not a nurse because I chose it but because He allowed it. I am a nurse to show you compassion and love in both your darkest and your happiest times. I am a nurse not for myself but for you. Though the shifts are long and hard, my feet hurt and I’m hungry, I know that somedays I’ll be in the right place at the right time to be exactly what you need when you need it. 

So often I get burnt out and discouraged as an ER nurse and as a wife and mother. I work long hours meaning I miss a lot and we get behind on housework, but I am reminded regularly why I do it. Last night as I was ready to throw in the towel I went to a patients beside to hang an IV of Potassium, she quietly told me that she appreciated me and that she was so glad that I was her nurse. She had just gotten the news earlier in the day that her cancer was back and that she would probably not have a good outcome this time. I don’t usually have time to sit with my patients and talk but I knew this time I needed to make time, so I sat down in the chair at the bedside and I asked her if she needed someone to talk to and she held my hand and cried. She told me how much she loves the mountains and turns out we share a favorite vacation destination in North Georgia. As I discharged this sweet lady to the care of her family at home I told her thank you. Thank you not only for being my patient but for stopping me and sharing yourself with me a total stranger. Thank you for being so genuine. Somedays I just want to hang up my stethoscope but everyday I see you, my patients, you are why we do what we do.

Love, 
Your Gypsy ER Nurse



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